Death

When relatives or friends die, we mourn.
If the person was a true believer, we need to rejoice! That person is now in heaven with his Lord!
Proverbs 3:5-6 says, "⁵Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.⁶In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."
This means that the Lord is in control! We need to keep trusting Him because whatever happened was His will!
If you're relatives or friends are unsaved, you need to take immediate action.
Try witnessing to them. If you and your relative aren't too close, just offer a tract and friendliness.
It might be too late if you put it off aside for the next family reunion!
Don't forget to include them in your prayers.
If you take part in that person's Spiritual life, God will bless you.
Of course, before you witness to your relatives and friends, YOU must be saved.
You need to acknowledge that you are a sinner and that no one can save you except Jesus Christ.
Jesus died a very painful death on the cross for your sins!
When you acknowledge all these, you need to ask God for forgiveness, repent of your sins, and confess.
Your question: What if Jesus doesn't forgive me? I'm a terrible sinner!
Answer: Jesus WILL forgive you for it says in I John 1:9, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.".
Ask the Lord to be your personal Savior and Lord. After that, ask the Lord for His guidance and confidence to witness. He wants you to share this wonderful news to your friends, family, and even strangers! Don't forget to thank Him for all that He has done for you! Now, you need to grow and be like Him. You can't just pray the prayer and not actually change. The prayer doesn't actually save you; it is Christ that saves. There must be a change in your life. You must want to follow Him and to learn His Word.